Created: March 25, 2024 9:13 PM Tags: Personal Property: 1
I am trying to effect some behavior change in myself. My goals are:
- to be less anxious
- to be less driven by anxiety and more by joy and purpose
- to take control of my time
I have been observing myself over the last few months to notice any patterns that lead me to my current mode of being anxious and anxiety driven and reached the following conclusions.
- I’m always in problem solving mode. My mind is essentially occupied by the most pressing problem.
- the pressing problem tends to be driven by emotions
- my motivation is often derived from my perception of how well I’m solving the problem
- I often lose sight of bigger problems or my anxiety causes me to make mistakes
I have also observed that I’m calmer when I reflect and write things down (rather than retain information in my head). I want to now start compartmentalizing my time into four categories: 1. work, 2. Family, 3. Personal Growth, 4. Chore. I want to use calendars to block out times and only worry about work during “work”.
A sketch for a better me
All my life I have been living up to some else’s standards. I want what I want based on other’s perception of it. I don’t want to live that life any more. I want to live my life in my own way. I want to take control of my actions. I recognize that I have certain patterns that keep me from living my life the way I want. It confuses me. I waste a lot of energy by thinking without acting. I want to put an end to this and become a new person, bit by bit. The only way to do that is by building habits. I want to be fearless, hardworking, kind and mindful. I want to write my story..